Standing together,
Smiling.
It was I who knew you first,
It was I who loved you first.
but now you are
hers...
I wonder about the differences in the way we talk...
We've known each other for over 6 years.
Yet...
We still talk like just good acquaintances.
But she's only known you for just over a year,
She talks to you like your best friend.
Oppa and I...
I guess that's all that we were...
seemingly close...
yet a little distant.
I wanted to make that gap closer,
but I guess I just didn't have enough courage...
I read in a poetry book that I bought a while ago.
"If sadness cascades into your life, shakes your heart,"
"and sweeps away your most precious thing..."
"Then say this to your heart."
"This too, shall pass"
My heart tells me now that it's sad...
But this sadness will pass in time, too.
Will it not?
Even the memories of my love for you will pass, too,
Will it not?
I just...
Really hope that you'll be happy...
So, today,
For the last time,
I want to say this to you.
I love you, oppa

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我只會愛oppa一天
衣柜里最後一格的一件條紋毛衣
今天握在手裡的一個空空的take out咖啡杯,就像平常一樣
書桌裡的一盒包裝的漂漂亮亮的巧克力
這些是在我房間里陪伴了我一年的東西
還有一些信,寫好地址,貼好郵票了
但是卻沒有被我送出去
今天我打掃了房間
我只是覺得我的思緒很混亂
所以就打掃了房間
但是在房間裡的每一個角落里
我不斷的找到一些回憶
我不斷的找到能讓我記起你的東西
所以我打掃不下去了
特別是
你的照片
里面有我,oppa
和她
站在一起
笑著
我是那個先認識你的人
我是那個先愛上你的人
但是現在
你是她的人了...
我想知道我們言行的不同之處
我們認識6年多了
然而...
我們仍舊像普通相識一般談話
可是他認識你才1年多
就可以像知己一樣與你談心
oppa和我
我猜想我們只能那樣子了
看似親近
仍舊有距離
我曾試圖把我們的距離縮短
但我想我就是沒有足夠勇氣
我在一本以前買的詩集里讀到
"如果悲傷涌進了你的生活,打亂了你的心
並且沖刷走了你最寶貝的東西
那么就對你的心說
'這些也是一樣,終會過去的'"
我的心告訴我說它很難過
但是這悲傷也終究會隨著時間而過去,對不對?
甚至我對你的愛的回憶也會過去,對不對?
我只是
真心的希望oppa能夠幸福
所以今天
最後一次
我要告訴你
我愛你,oppa...